Heal My Heart in This Holy Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Selama ni tak sedar yg hati semakin lama semakin berpenyakit...(penyakit hati)

Cepat marah, cepat berprasangka, cepat iri hati, cepat cemburu, dn semua la...-___-

Kerana hati yg rosak ni lah juga, sy...

Semakin jauh dgn Tuhan...

Dan hilang seorang teman yg sangat istimewa...

O Allah...it hurts so much...knowing that everything I wanted is far beyond my grab..

I'm heedless...full of foolishness and ignorance..

I've made so many mistakes..

I dream a lot that makes me a daydreamer..

I've ruined everything for the sake of answering my own anxiety...which is actually a preconception..far off my wise thinking..

I've hurt somebody with my words..

I crushed somebody's hope..

I couldn't say more...

I'm not a good person..but I tried to the hardest of becoming a good one..may it not be for other's sake, but for Allah....and for myself...

My heart still hurt..badly hurt..for I'm the one who hurt it..

But...

I've learned that every mistakes I've made is to teach me how to behave and how to adapt myself all through many obstacles...

I've learned that when I take a few steps to approach Him, my heart is at peace..

He knows everything inside this fragile heart..

O Allah...may this holy Shahra give me peaceful and may this heart heals from sadness and 'ailment'..

Guide me O Allah...towards becoming a tougher person, and a better one..

Don't let me fall for things that are worthless for me..

Don't let me reminisce back the past that brought nothing but miserable to me..

And don't let me keep a 'black hole' inside of me that would swallow all the good things that come..

Forgive my sins O Allah...

For my beloved parents, sister, granny and other family, please forgive all my mistakes...

and for kawans, sahabats and Teman, tolong maafkan diri ini yg dah selalu menyakiti perasaan kalian..from the bottom of my heart, please forgive me..

Marilah sama2 merasai ketenangan di bulan Ramadhan ini...sama2 memperbaiki diri...sama2 menyembuhkan penyakit hati... InsyaAllah, kita akan menjadi insan yg lebih baik...semoga menjadi hamba yg dekat di sisi-Nya..

Allahumma amienn...

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